Let me share with you something that could help you look at your present issue or challenge with new eyes and so discover a facet that has not been apparent as yet.
Some weeks ago, during a check up allowing me to keep my driving license, I have been given a diagnosis of a problem that was causing progressive blindness. That was a shock, since I was seeing well – except that road signs were not as legible from afar as they had been! But mostly, I knew where I was going, so it wasn’t a problem!
Now, however, no driving license would become a real challenge, so on the spot I decided on having the surgeries but then – another problem! there was no guarantee that the operations would actually stop the progression of the blindness. I turned to my intuition, to my guidance that I have a habit of consulting and it said: “share your problem!” I live alone, have no family here and on the surface, sharing didn’t seem helpful. But then I remembered I was connecting with a group the next day over the Internet and decided to share with them, even though it would be difficult.
That turned out to be the right decision, as I got insights how eyesight problems can be caused by an unconscious conflict between seeing physically and seeing spiritually; and if one activates one side only, it can prevent us from having the other side. I have a strong tendency to hide, to stay invisible, unnoticed, inconspicuous, and it is still a great effort even to write and be a healer, connecting with people in that way.
I needed to heal that in a bigger way and turned to prayer, meditation and asking questions such as, “What is this disability trying to teach me? Trying to make me become? Where am I not congruent with what my Spirit wants me to do, or become? What am I not seeing that Spirit wants me to see?” Even just continually asking those questions without looking for an answer left me no time to sit and bemoan my condition.
It actually consciously connected me to my soul and Spirit a hundred, or two hundred times a day, rather than the three or four times previously, between other occupations. After the first surgeries I could hardly read at all, used a magnifying glass to see which emails were urgent to deal with and only read those. My days were filled with client sessions and meditations and one day I woke up with a knowing that I had engineered this situation for myself, because it would be the fastest way for me to grow in some way, become more attuned to my soul purpose, integrate more of what my Spirit is. I didn’t have to know why, when, where or how – all I had to know was, that it was so.
The feeling of relief that I had then was indescribable. My problem was still there, I still couldn’t read easily, I was still in pain from the surgeries, I was due for another one with no guarantee as to the outcome and yet, all was well, I was at peace internally knowing that whatever happened, would again be for my highest growth in that moment – just as every moment of our lives, whether understood or not by our personality, is always there to get us to our next level, if we are willing to align with our soul.
