Today, I want to talk to you about change, because right now, change is staring me in the face in a way it never has before.
The big changes in my life have come about so suddenly that I never even had the time to anticipate or prepare myself for them. A plane crashing, a car driven at speed, resulting in the death of my husband and son. Each of these required activating resources I never knew I had, and overcoming all manner of difficulties, mostly material in the case of my husband, and mostly spiritual in the case of my son.
Now, as I see it, the change involves just me, and I have time before me to anticipate, and prepare myself, as best I can, to an unwanted possibility. What else is there in life but its material and spiritual aspects? So this time, I am facing both of them together and am supported by the fact that I have been able to overcome each of them in turn, and come out of it a more expanded, more conscious and hopefully, a better human being. Why should this challenge have a different outcome?
So let me speak – and I am thinking out loud now – of how I can approach my diagnosis so that it becomes not a possible disaster, but an opportunity to fully show up as the Spirit that somewhere deep down, I know I am. Even if it’s hidden right now, like the sun gets hidden by a cloud. What else do I know, for sure?
I know that life is all about change and transformation; in fact one of the definitions of “life” is that it has the ability to change.
I know that changing from a baby to a competent adult, even if some stages have been difficult, has been a wonderful expansion of every facet of my being, and I wouldn’t have wanted to stay a baby, stay the same.
I know that my Source loves me enough to have committed to stay with me and give me all of itself all the time – so would not want me to experience anything that was not for my ultimate good.
I know that all my past challenges, big or small, have always resulted in a growth, an expansion, a change of direction, in something more becoming apparent – even if the actual outcome of the event did not change. My perspective of it changed, and the result was good.
I know that my concerns about this change stems from a lack of trust that Life is for me always, never against me – or we wouldn’t be alive.
Instead of resisting change – and when, in the whole of my life, has resisting change brought things back to where they were? All that I gained by that attitude is a life of misery, fruitless regrets and grief. Isn’t it time to try a new mindset that says: “In the past things have always worked out. They will also work out this time. By holding fast to the things I absolutely know, that so far every change has brought me more and better; that a loving God is always supporting me and telling me that I can surmount this because I with God is a majority, and nothing can stand against me as God.”
So since the ultimate outcome must be for me, for my highest evolution, let me live my next month, until I really, fully know what the physical outcome will be, not in fear of the possible negative outcomes, but in the attitude of being grateful that this is teaching me to live in the awareness of having Spirit within me; remembering it is Omnipotent, Omniscient and Omnipresent, and therefore I of myself don’t need to know, or do anything. I will know it is the Spirit doing everything through and as me – and Spirit can do no wrong.
So whatever the outcome, it will be good -and that’s all I need to know.
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