There are many instances when we would like to know the answer to a question in the forefront of our lives in order to resolve a dilemma, to heal a trauma, to restore balance or improve our health. But what’s going on in our minds is, “I don’t know why I am getting those migraines!” Or, “Why is this happening to me?” or “God, help me to clear this trauma, or disease!”
All of which doesn’t usually help to resolve the issue that is currently our experience. We need to start asking better questions, hopefully from a place of knowing that anything that’s showing up in our lives can only have appeared through our own consciousness. Instead of saying ” I don’t know why this is”, we could perhaps say “I would really like to know”.
“I would like to know all about this issue I’m having and I would like to be able to bring it to resolution and be free of it.” That would be recognizing both my participation in the appearance, and my responsibility in bringing it to a satisfactory closure. Not putting the blame on my childhood upbringing, on myself, on another person or event in my life, or if all else fails, going into metaphysics and blaming my alternate lives!
I can give you an example of this from my own life, when my left foot started hurting inside; it felt like the bones inside were painful. Day by day getting worse, looking infected, swelling, intensely painful, the red/violet hue reaching my knee and nothing the doctor did brought any relief. The day came that they wanted to amputate.
I was already on a spiritual path, and had been praying and asking for a healing right from the start, but without any result. The day I came home with an amputation hanging over me, I went into meditation again, and a different kind of prayer shot through me: “God, tell me what I need to know and do so as to heal this and keep my leg?” And the answer was immediate; the images of two healers/shamans I had briefly met on separate occasions some years back dropped into my head, together with the identical first words they said to me: “You are a healer”.
As I heard those words in my head, the penny dropped: My path was to be a healer, but both times I had declined their offer to help me do that; I knew nothing about healing, and wasn’t interested in learning. Now, understanding that was my path for this life brought an immediate and absolute commitment to fulfill that purpose, if indeed it was mine, and I thought: “God, if you want me to do this, I will. Bring me what I need, because I don’t even know where to start.” The feeling I had when saying those words is indescribable, unlike anything I had ever felt before, or even now, when committing to things. But unforgettable.
The next morning, the constant pain I had been in was almost gone, the size of the leg was half-way down, and by that evening, it looked, and felt, as if it had never had anything wrong with it.
I want to emphasize the difference between a prayer of supplication, and one of taking responsibility and asking to be shown what it was I needed to know and do to heal myself. And then, committing a 1000% to doing something I had no clue as to how to do and actually taking every step as shown to me – and continuing, to this day. A commitment such as this is for life and new steps are revealed as needed.
